i hug trees because i love them

babyflatflat99 @ 2005-03-16T23:45:00

2005-03-17T04:46:48Z

before i delete this account...

NEW LJ account

mariehugstrees

please add the poor girl.

babyflatflat99 @ 2005-03-13T01:02:00

2005-03-13T06:03:33Z

i needed an LJ change.
so many things here i don't wanna remember.
besides the name's annoying.

add if you want.

mariehugstrees

babyflatflat99 @ 2005-03-12T00:29:00

2005-03-12T05:35:54Z

i just realized how much i take things for granted.
hanging out with two spectacular people today taught me my lesson.
marina and jayson, you guys rock and i hate myself for never hanging with you.
but i'm so happy i did.
damn you maz who's leaving. :tears:
agh katie, how i love you but despise you as well. lol. jk. i love you katie.

oh yeah.
i need to catch myself before i tumble.
care so much it hurts...

whatever?!?

world peace is sooooooo possible

2005-03-09T17:01:35Z

so im back home and it feels mighty fine.
THIRTEEN point THIRTY EIGHT. yep. TWO in my ass. :-P

people, try to be nice to each other. i may sound stupid or unrealistic but i think we can achieve world peace if we really believe in it. you don't have to be fake or incredibly nice, just try to do little acts of kindness. it makes a difference.

I am 82% Emo.

Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.

Take the
Emo Test
@ FualiDotCom

is there such thing as happy emo because i'm not really sad, just sensitive.

babyflatflat99 @ 2005-02-20T21:46:00

2005-02-21T02:58:31Z

i told her exactly how i feel and it feels mighty fine.

if i die right this minute, it's alright
i may be out of sight
but i know that i lived a life
with a lot less lies
and the most amazing people
who make my life more worthwhile

i'm a senior
i haven't found the man of my dreams
i've never been the girl of a man's dreams
but it doesnt matter how forever further seems
because my time was never wasted
because every minute i feel loved and i feel love
for those who matter to me most

i'm a senior now
and this is my last year
i know not much lies ahead of me
i won't be a doctor, a lawyer or ms. president
i may not even marry
but i can die any minute
with much to miss but everything to be thankful for

friendship is amazing
love is delightful
family, annoying they may be, is comforting
nevertheless, now i can say
i may be surrounded by assholes, bitches and bastards
but i am surrounded by people
who i'd want to grow old with
people i'd want to spend the rest of my life
loving, caring for and making each and every day
not just another day

i love you, husband of mine.
you are never ever alone.

babyflatflat99 @ 2005-02-18T19:53:00

2005-02-19T00:55:53Z

i am so happy that she's so happy.

:)

and yea. i'm unWIRED.

babyflatflat99 @ 2005-02-13T01:28:00

2005-02-13T06:31:54Z

i don't think i'm going to prom.
everyone's all excited. everyone's gonna spend loads of dough.

but i don't even have a date.
so as of now, i'm not going.

babyflatflat99 @ 2005-02-06T23:26:00

2005-02-07T04:35:32Z

i got a prom dress. for free. ::STOP SMIRKING ALYSSA ANN and VICKY!!!::
now all i need is a date. that's the shittiest part because i ain't going without a date. i don't want a pity date either. that's impossible so i'd probably end up not going.

people must stop being cunts and just get along. fuckers must think before they hate.

"you may say i'm a dreamer but i'm not the only one. i hope someday you'll join us and the world will live as one."

i drew all over my walls. colored pencils are the bestest.
my biggest wish (well, for the moment) is to get the best set of crayola colored pencils so i can make lots and lots of posters for -hugs for humanity-!

i'm so far gone now

2005-01-30T07:08:43Z

i've been having nightmares about my english teacher for the past 2 days.
i'm really really scared. i don't know how i'd deal with school on monday.

found out a lot of things lately. i'm really a blah person. i wonder why i have friends. is it because they feel bad for me? i'm just one whiny little bitch. sometimes i feel out of place. a lot of times actually. not because other people are inconsiderate but because i am a selfish spoiled whore. yes, this is such a mistake posting it in lj so that the rest of the world can be reminded of how retarded and annoying i am. but for some reason i have to vent. ::breathes deeply::

it's lonely not having my mother around. it's been 2 weeks and i miss her already. i feel so alone. i feel like a BURDEN on other people's backs, asking favors, acting ADD-ish, needing more affection. i wish i was brave. i wish i was strong. i wish i was pretty. so i can actually look into myself and be proud. i am sick and tired of being so dependent on others. but now what am i to do.

what kind of woman am i? if i find this bad how can i deal with college. see, that's a problem. i'm soooooo gonna die.

babyflatflat99 @ 2005-01-27T01:37:00

2005-01-27T06:41:42Z

...how come i'm never and will never ever be good enough?...

people better do this

2005-01-23T00:25:16Z

what if ....
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
» Family:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you adore me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

***i reposted it because people weren't doing it. and now its better because there's the first part.

i'm a good for nothing bitch who is about to go broke

2005-01-10T02:36:32Z

this is one of those times when i want to die.
my life sucks right now and there's nothing i can do about it.
i want to be an activist but i'm broke. just great.
after prom, i don't wanna go clubbinh. i wanna go straight to the beach/mountain and roast marshmallows around the bonfire. thats if i'm going to prom.

ms. libutti: i do liek you but if you won't stop. i'm gonna drop it like its hot. and it won't be pretty.

anyway here's that survey thing.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. marie
2. nikki
3. shaneikqua

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. babyflatflat99
2. stars are lonely
3. hello big poppa

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. spunkiness
2.
3.

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. booblessness
2. dry skin, chapped lips
3. annoyingness

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. filipino
2. portuguese
3. more filipino...

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. oranges
2. poppa vicari’s hair
3. fat joe the rapper

FOUR OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. a gallon of water
2. some rad tunes
3. coffee and a whole lotta toothbrushing
4. smiles and hugs

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. early november t-shirt
2. pjs
3. polka dot panties

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE ARTISTS:
only three?!??!?!?!
1. matchbook romance
2. say hi to your mom
3. halifax

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. promise - matchbook romance
2. puff the magic dragon - me first and the gimme gimmes
3. place found - early day miners

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. read house of the spirits to pass ib english and drive
2. get a boyfriend to stargaze with
3. do not slack off/procastinate

FIVE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. hugs
2. sweetness
3. a good boy who will love me like i love him
4. "inkstinks!"
5. cuddling

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. i don’t mind peeing in the boys’ bathroom
2. i am the ugliness :(
3. i am a rapper

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. a cool personality to back it up
2. smile
3. eyes

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. have sex with a random person and no feelings
2. smoke crack
3. keep quiet

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. online-ing
2. yearbook-ing
3. the radio or some movies

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. talk to someone other than myself
2. get high speed internet
3. be hugged/loved

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. advertising
2. media/journalism
3. ownign my own restaurant

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. hawaii
2. philippines
3. italy, if it’s hot...

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. make the world a better place
2. travel the whole wide world
3. kiss a guy i like

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR HAVE A PAINFUL HANGNAIL:
almost everyone took it already...
1. whoever
2. has not
3. done it yet

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Pig Out.

Get your resolution here

you put your left foot in, you put your right foot out

2005-01-05T04:13:56Z

interesting day.
people said i fell asleep really hard 4th period. eh. i don't get it but okie.
still don't know who mystery guy is. ms. libutti or mr. coyle would never tell.
a very green-y day. started out sucky but turned out fantastic.

vicky, sorry for my mother's harrassing in linens in things. damn asian people and their obsession with discounts!

i forgot why i've always loved that crazy white girl who drives like shit. then today i remembered why.
why oh why? because she's special.

zena needs to dye my hair ASAP!

maz and jay... i had fun. you guys are coolies.

applied to 3 colleges. go me. go me 17 year old me!
oh yeah. i think i need or want a man, do i? tell me about it.

babyflatflat99 @ 2004-12-31T04:00:00

2004-12-31T09:02:16Z

WOOHOO

i am officially 17!

babyflatflat99 @ 2004-12-26T01:15:00

2004-12-26T06:22:30Z

i'm in california. the OC woo hoo! home of halifax.

i haven't even been here for a day and i already miss some people.

vickay i love you. my zena. and all the other bitches.

its hot here though.

babyflatflat99 @ 2004-12-07T17:08:00

2004-12-08T01:10:57Z

life sucks and then i die.

babyflatflat99 @ 2004-11-28T00:10:00

2004-11-28T05:13:32Z

saw this guy who looks like ace enders.
too bad i'm never ever gonna see him.

oh yeah. i finally updated my myspace.

http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=373644&Mytoken=20041127211114

la dee la dee da...

2004-11-19T22:20:44Z

things are so fucked up. i'm such a drama queen.
this whole yearbook thing's aggravating.

i hate this.
i'm so good for nothing.

just like that...

on the bright side, i passed 2 classes.

bulldog day sucks

2004-11-11T03:29:22Z

LJs can be evil. the can break hearts.

spirit week - pep rally today. kinda sucked. people are bitter.
libutti's type bitchy.

"no carbs" is death. never will i go down that road. too painful.

lana's our queen, nick's the king. cool.

i love vicky forever and ever.

there are times when people are lonely.
this is it.

oh yeah, kate: lubbs! you're sweet.

early november has begun

2004-11-06T05:19:58Z

sometimes i hate life. liek right now.

i'm so irritable.

bush won. haha. well thats hope for me; stupid people CAN succeed.

babyflatflat99 @ 2004-10-31T00:26:00

2004-10-31T04:37:55Z

halloween tomorrow. yay.

i'm officially one of yhs' weird freaks.

college is scary.

scott's hot.

if i was a boy, i would go out with
- ms. v
- vicky

some people are so funny.

driving aimlessly 90 mph is just oh so fun.

october's almost over. yay early november.

2004-10-27T03:12:07Z

they said senior year would be awesome.
it is IF these goddamn college shit is begone.

i HATE HATE HATE this whole college crap.
especially since i can only go to 2 colleges, with my bleh gpa.

i'm not going alone. for the first year at least.

yearbook feels like another class. in a fun way.

i'm on libutti's shit list. i am totally in danger everything except environmental science (cause no one ever does). plus my SAT score sucks.

what to do what to do. drop out and make home porn videos?

i've had a tummy ache since god knows when.

yonkers high school is so damn twisted. trust me, i know.

if i could i would marry either vicky or alyssa and have passionate loving because i need a man but can't have one.

on the bright side: I CAN MAKE A MESS LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS' album is out today.

jesus of suburbia is a pretty damn interesting song title

2004-10-18T21:20:51Z

at least, i've finally got myself together ever since "it" happened. i guess peopke eventually die and we must just get used to it. as sad as it is.

oh yeah i went to the early november concert last week. it was fun fun fun. i crowdsurfed which is diesel. got home mad late. yay! mega tiring. my legs hurt liek a bitch. i got my shirt signed by chris from halifax and jeff from t.e.n.
ace enders is so hot. i can make a mess like nobody's business was whoa. so was hellogoodbye and hidden in plainview. so lovely.

i've been doing horrible in school. i lostmy english binder AGAIN. it's really scary. libutti's coming at me!

i just realized some things. school is so interesting. mr. valk is hot. mr' mcdonald looks like a sex-pro. mr. harrington's student teacher is the shizzle. like today, i purposely went inside mr. h's room to take a look ata mr. loverboy. i think he saw me and was like "wtf?" hehhe. thats not THAT stalkerish, eh? also, the english student teacher is real pretty.

mom and i fought big time today. she was soooo annoying. bitch won't stop nagging me, it's scary how she won't get off my back. but then i proved her wrong. she was sooooo off. she believes my friends agree with her. but actually they just laugh at her because she's annoying.

BITCHES! i CAN go to college. woo hoo.

oh yeah i'm one of the yearbook editors. it's really fun. ms. selimaj is the sweetest. this year's should be hot. fundraising galore.

i miss vicky ho. and surprisingly, i miss ann?!?!
a lot of people have been sick-ish lately. zena, stacy and vicki. :big hug:
davon's ass is mad juicy. and to my cunts: i lubb yous.

keane is mad aweosme.

babyflatflat99 @ 2004-10-08T11:06:00

2004-10-07T01:11:38Z

this world is so goddamn sick and twisted.

first of all, he shouldn't have died.
i will never see him again. no goodbye. nothing.

some people are bleh. i'm sick of it.
conniving bastards.
i'm going to hell.

spiked up my hair yesterday to cheer me up.
kids started calling me the devil.
i don't care. fuck it. motherfuckers.

i've gone bipolar.
he didn't deserve to die. HE DIDN'T!

i got the job as editor of the yearbook. :-/

it's only been a few days and i miss him already.
i wanna come home to see him for one last time.
i can't. i fuckin' can't.

people ask "why are you so errr lately?"
i wouldn't be err if he was still breathing.
i have all the goddamn reason to be errr.

i don't know what to do.

i am pissed off.
fuck everything. FUCK FUCK FUCK everything.

babyflatflat99 @ 2004-10-05T18:04:00

2004-10-06T01:15:22Z

often times we take people for granted.
and we realize it when it's too late.

it doesn't matter anymore.
great guy indeed.

thank you, my bitches.
i felt the love.

i ♥ you.

i think i'll go to school.
at least, i have my indie.